Monday, April 15, 2013

Impatience + Stubborn = Staying Home Then

Anyone who has read more than three of my blogs knows that I am not a patient person.  When you add to that lovely brew a pretty wide stubborn streak, I am sometimes accused of being unreasonable.  Not that I would agree, of course.
Earlier this week ( three days ago) I had asked a person who probably doesn't want me to use his name if he wanted to go to the movies.  On Tuesday a movie is only five dollars, and frankly I wanted the popcorn more than the movie.  There isn't a movie playing right now that is worth eight dollars for me to see.  So anyway, he doesn't want to go on Tuesday.  He counter offers with Thursday.  I said no thanks, for the earlier reason.  How about if we just grab a dvd and eat popcorn at your house, I suggested.  Well, that didn't suit him because he had some errands to run and I'm sure he had some other reason that I am unaware of at this time.
Fast forward to today. Friday.  We got three inches of snow last night, the sky is grey and mostly I would  just want to watch a movie at home.  I have access to hundreds of them from my store.  It's Friday and this is Lent.  So I'm thinking a grilled cheese sandwich, bowl of tomato soup and a dvd, right?  No sense in getting out in the slop, easy peasy, what can go wrong?
Well for some reason, he doesn't want to go to his house and watch a movie, he wants to go out.  In the slop, fighting crowds, to over pay for a movie and eat a meal that I can't enjoy.
I try to be accommodating, I really do.  I mostly stifle my impatience with people.  Since I work with the public, I don't have much of a choice.  But I don't think that I am wrong about this.  And when I think that I am right, I dig in.
If I do go, I won't enjoy myself.  I'll be cranky and snippy and why would I do that to someone else?  I genuinely like this guy, or at least I did before all of this crap.  Maybe there is something going on with him that I don't know about.  I don't expect to be the center of every one's universe, but I don't think asking for a quiet, simple night out is all that terrible either.  Who knows?
Turns out that I am staying home tonight.  I have a book I, Judas by Taylor Caldwell and Jess Stearn that I have been reading.  I'll make my grilled cheese and mutter to myself for the better part of the evening.  I will probably not answer my phone later, and I'll be in a bad mood tomorrow no doubt.
I have reconsidered, but I am not changing my mind.  There are some days when I just want to stay away from people.  This looks like one of those days.  So avoid me today and tomorrow.  You'll thank me later.

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