I am not gifted with patience. If I wanted something in three days, I would wait three days to ask you for it. I have never cultivated patience, it does not seem like a useful attribute to me. In the last few years, I have been visited with plenty of opportunities to acquire patience, it just never took. (Don't pray for God to grant you patience, by the way, because all you get are more chances to develop it.)
I have, however, been given lots of situations that require me to wait. It seems like I have had one catastrophe after another. It started when my ex developed an attraction to mannish women. He left, which isn't my biggest problem. I did love him, or at least I loved the person I thought he was, but after discovering that he had been systematically stealing from the savings account that I set up for our children, I pretty much got over that. He not only stole from them, he tried to cover it up by telling our sons to lie about it for him.
I ask you, what sort of man teaches his sons that cheating is not only okay, but something they should betray their Mother by helping to hide? The answer: the sort of man who was raised in a family where abortions were used as birth control, and stealing is just a way of life. Hind site is truly twenty-twenty.
I don't choose men well. If there are thirty great guys in a room and one truly unique a-hole, guess which one I end up talking to? The first man that I thought that I loved was also a turd. A cheating, lying, stealing,.... you get the picture. Do you see the pattern? I do, too. The thing that surprises me is that I didn't see the resemblance until it was too late. I tend to be over cautious now. I am not letting anyone get close enough to wreak the havoc that those two did.
But the point I was trying to make, before I began my wallowing that is, is that you have to get up after some really crappy thing happens. You have to, because if you don't, you are just giving up. Giving up is not an option. Just keep getting up when the bad thing happens, and even if you get knocked down again. Just get up. You'll make it through, and you can thank me later.
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